to curse; to put a curse on; to detest intensely
halting (speech); faltering; stammering
carefree; comfortable; at ease; easygoing; happy-go-lucky
to subsist; to keep on living
self-indulgent; undisciplined; slovenly; debauched; negligent
selfish; egoist; (arch.) self-indulgent; (arch.) wilful; (arch.) willful
whim; caprice; fancy; capricious; fickle; whimsical
reason for living; something one lives for; purpose in life; raison d'être; ikigai
to (make something) quiver; to shake; to tremble; to vibrate
with a plop; with a plonk; with a plunk; with a flop
to spill over and fall; to scatter (petals, leaves, etc.)
to dazzle one's eyes; to hold one's gaze; to fascinate; to captivate
skillful; skilful; adroit; clever; shrewd; ingenious
crude; unrefined; coarse; ill-mannered; rude; insensitive
free; unfettered; according to one's own whims; doing as one likes
whistling (wind); blowing; fluttering (in the wind); waving; staggering; tottering
dainty; delicate (e.g. fingers); fine; sensitive; delicate (feelings, sense, etc.); subtle
sad news; news of a death; death notice
clumsy; awkward; unskillful; incompetent; inept; bungling
thickheaded; insensitive; dull; thick-skinned
cool; indifferent; apathetic; cold; cold-hearted; heartless
not serious; frivolous; insincere; unsteady
discomfort; inconvenience; poverty; want; inability; disability
grown-up (manner, etc.); mature; adult
childish; childlike; immature; infantile; puerile
wild; uninhibited; extravagant; rampant
being circumscribed by one's own words and actions
lovely; dear; beloved; pitiable; pitiful
to pray; to say a prayer; to say grace; to wish; to hope
to fire (gun, arrow, questions, etc.); to shoot; to set free; to release; to emit (e.g. light); to give off (e.g. a scent)
long ago; a long time ago; already
recovery; undoing; recall
intracerebral; inside the brain; (occurring) in the mind; mental (e.g. image); imaginary
to ring an alarm bell; to sound a warning; to blow a whistle; to warn
(looking) blankly; vacantly; dazedly; (staring) in puzzlement; with a look of amazement
regrettable; vexing; upsetting; unthinkable; wholly unexpected
mouth; lips; shape of the mouth; near an entrance; vicinity of an entrance
to stare fixedly at; to fix one's gaze on; to make sure of; to set one's eyes on (e.g. the future); to focus on
rumination; regurgitation; chewing the cud; turning over in one's mind; thinking over (something); pondering
for a short while; for a brief period; soon; in a short while
nod deeply; glugging; drinking deeply
bitter smile; wry smile; forced smile; strained laugh
or rather (say); or better (say); or perhaps I should say; by the way
large drop (of rain, sweat, tears, etc.); large grain-like object (e.g. grape, cherry)
to spill; to fall out of; to peek through; to become visible (although normally not); to escape (of a smile, tear, etc.)
self-torturing; masochistic