to talk to oneself; to mutter
somewhere; anywhere; in some respects
help; rescue; salvation; solace; (religious) salvation; (Christian) grace
(one's) whereabouts; destination; where one is headed; outcome; course (of events); future
to exclude (somebody); to ignore; to keep in the dark; to leave out of the loop
change; alteration; difference; distinction; something wrong; abnormality
to feel down; to feel sad; to be in a slump (business, economy, etc.); to be in an unfavourable condition; to fall into (e.g. a hole)
to push into; to cram into; to stuff into; to break in; to burgle; to burglarize
somehow; for some reason; without knowing why
the reverse; other side; lining
to stick (to); to cling (to); to stay (e.g. in the office)
automatic; intransitive verb
to become stronger; to grow in intensity; to grow violent; to invite contributions, etc.; to solicit help, participation, etc.; to recruit (e.g. soldiers)
after all; in the end; anyway; (cannot) possibly; (not) at all; (not) by any means
achievement; attainment; accomplishment; realization
to mow down; to cut down; to knock down; to defeat; to beat
self-torturing; masochistic
young girl; lass; adolescent female
education; schooling; training; culture; cultivation; education
back; reverse; rear side; height; stature; ridge (of a mountain)
child's face; childlike face; boyish face; baby face
idle complaint; grumble; moha (ignorance, folly)
downward spiral; negative spiral; vicious circle
to fall into (e.g. a hole); to fall into (chaos, depression, dilemma, illness, etc.); to fall into (a trap, etc.); to fall; to surrender
poor health; ill health; unhealthy
absence; being away from home; house-sitting; house-sitter; being left unattended to (of one's studies, etc.); neglecting
shifting (the burden) onto; ill effects; negative consequences; burden
(at) any time; always; at all times; whenever
to resign; to retire; to quit; to leave (one's job, etc.)
unreliable; undependable; helpless; forlorn; worried; uneasy
aspiration; volunteering; desire; application
it does not mean that ...; I don't mean that ...; it is not the case that
to turn up; to roll up (e.g. sleeves); to do over and over again; to do relentlessly; to stage a comeback (against) (in mahjong, horse racing, etc.); to come from behind
(computer) command; command key; commando
thoroughly; completely; severely; harshly; (arch.) scattered; (arch.) disconnected
refreshingly; with a feeling of relief; shapely; neatly; cleanly; without trouble; clearly
self-torture; masochism; inflicting damage to oneself
marsh; swamp; wetland; being hooked (on a video game, TV show, etc.)
dear (old); fondly-remembered; beloved; missed; nostalgic