to commit suicide; to end one's life; (lit.) to choose death
wish; desire; hope; prospect; expectation; (one's) hopes
denial; negation; negation; NOT operation
harsh (criticism, treatment, etc.); severe; hard; strict
mental derangement; madness; insanity
to remonstrate; to admonish (someone) for; to advise (someone) not to; to warn against
bad job; poor workmanship; bungle
lie; fib; mistake; error; unwise move; bad decision
to subsist; to keep on living
instead; but (on the other hand)
earnest; sincere; pressing; urgent; pertinent; appropriate
to put one's strength into
to look away; to avert one's eyes; to avoid facing (e.g. reality)
grumbling; muttering; nonsense
to associate with; to keep company with; to go out with; to go along with; to follow someone's lead; to accompany someone
justification; rationalization
carefree; relaxed; comfortable; at one's ease
happiness; well-being; joy; welfare; blessedness
to break (into pieces); to be broken; to collapse; to crumble; to become less formal; to throw off reserve
to do over again; to redo; to start over; to remake; to resume; to recommence
to carry on one's back; to burden oneself (e.g. with debts, responsibilities, etc.)
overserious; deeply sincere; very earnest
cannot be undone; can't be recovered from
in some way or other; one way or another; somehow; only just; barely
thin; slender; fine; unlucky
to separate; to part; to divide; to keep apart
to take the blame; to take responsibility; to assume liability; to bear the burden
from the beginning; from the first; of course; not to mention ...; not only ... but also ...
to cause someone's death; to cause someone to die; to kill
to mourn; to lament; to be sorry; to regret; to repent
to have one's heart stop beating; to be shocked; to be staggered
by any means, fair or foul
to complain; to make a complaint
I; me; oneself; (arch.) you; (arch.) prefix indicating familiarity or contempt
gently; mildly; leniently; don't be too hard on me (us, them); go easy on me
quarrel; brawl; fight; squabble; scuffle; argument
to cry; to shed tears; to suffer (from); to be troubled (by); to accept (an unreasonable request, loss, etc.); to do reluctantly
to the limit; to the fullest extent; absolutely the limit; one cup after another; cup by cup
to wipe; to mop up; to get rid of (an impression, feeling, blemish, etc.); to dispel (e.g. shame); to erase
bad taste (e.g. in clothes); poor taste
or rather (say); or better (say); or perhaps I should say; by the way
ultimate; final; last; eventual
to be worried; to be troubled
especially; particularly; surely; clearly; as if; as though
whole life; a lifetime; all through life; (the only, the greatest, etc.) of one's life