ill feeling; ill will; animosity; bad impression
at any cost; at any price; at any expense
one's every action; every single move
unexpectedly; by chance; by accident
oasis; OASYS (Fujitsu WP system)
pitch dark; total darkness
what I want to say is ...; the fact of the matter is ...; none other than ...
to confide; to reveal; to disclose; to lay bare; to speak frankly; to open (one's heart)
on countless occasions; many a time
(on) one's own; (by) oneself
poverty; need; destitution; having great difficulty with; struggling greatly with; being in distress
to beg; to ask; to request; to invite
this for sure; certainly is
spectacular move (chess, shogi, etc.); brilliant move; expert; virtuoso; master
to hang over; to shroud; to enshroud; to envelop; to screen
to sit up straight; to straighten one's posture; to straighten up
naked; nude; unvarnished (e.g. truth); plain (e.g. fact); frank
to laugh (something) off; to dismiss with a laugh; to pooh-pooh
I think (something) won't (something); probably (something) isn't (something)
wretched; miserable; shameful; mean; despicable; abject
turmoil; chaos; confusion
to give up (something as hopeless); to throw in the towel
lukewarm; tepid; half-hearted; vague; lenient; mild
to disappear; to vanish into thin air
to catch (someone's words); to make out; to follow; to ask about (a situation, circumstances, etc.); to inquire
there being no use in arguing (about it)
to connect; to link together; to pull together; to close tightly; to purse (e.g. lips)
one's whole heart; everything one feels
impossible to understand; impossible to decipher
doubt; suspicion; misgivings; scruples
to cross one's mind; to occur to one
unique; peculiar; singular
the five fingers; leading five; top five
having no choice; at a loss for what to do; at one's wits' end
with a smooth, unhindered motion; speedily and without delay
internal organ; viscera; gut
to go against; to oppose; to disobey; to defy
rationalization; justification