lack of sleep; insufficient sleep
middle of the night; dead of night
embarrassed; feeling ashamed; feeling awkward
I'm sorry; (it's) inexcusable; I feel regretful; thank you very much (for help, etc.)
because; the reason is; if you want to know why
to speak; to say; to vocalize
half in doubt; half-convinced; dubious; incredulous
originator; ringleader; perpetrator; main culprit; person responsible
self-proclaimed; self-professed; professing oneself to be; calling oneself; first person
fiction; made-up story; fable; fabrication; myth
skillful; skilful; delicious; tasty; good (deal, idea, etc.); profitable
person concerned; interested party; related party
to lose (through death; e.g. a wife, child)
fierce (fight, competition, etc.); severe; hot; hard; bitter; keen
cell; cell (in an organization, esp. a communist party)
one-by-one; separately; in detail
whole life; a lifetime; all through life; (the only, the greatest, etc.) of one's life
absurd; nonsensical; preposterous
self-awareness; awareness (of one's position, abilities, duty, etc.); perceiving (something); taking in (a sensation); self-consciousness
proof; testimony; demonstration; verification; certification
incoherent; inconsistent; illogical; disorderly; confused; nonsensical
personal history; background; career
true feelings; real intention; one's heart; one's right mind; one's senses; one's conscience
(one's) gaze; line of sight; point of view; standpoint; line covering someone's eyes (to obscure their identity); eye censor bar
for two people's eyes to meet; catching someone's eye; making eye contact; meeting a person's gaze
close (e.g. friend); familiar; familiar (e.g. story); well-known (to one); close (relatives); closely related
relationship; relation; terms (good, friendly, etc.)
lonely (e.g. person, feeling); lonesome; desolate; deserted; sad; lacking
a tiny bit; just a smidgin; a wee bit; very slightly
in a subdued voice; in undertones; in a whisper; in a mumble; in a murmur
to complete decisively; to do to completion
resentment; grudge; pent-up anger; frustration; bitterness
to vomit; to spit out; to breathe out (e.g. air); to exhale; to spend (e.g. saved money); to cough up
to come to mind; to pop into one's head
to criticize harshly; to blame; to accuse; to urge; to press
by the way; incidentally; sometimes; occasionally; precisely (at that time); exactly
leaving (on, open, unfinished, etc.); (doing) continuously; constantly; keep ...-ing
one by one; one after another; successively
unreasonable request; asking for something unreasonable
succession; continuation; series; sequence
dangerous; risky; awful; terrible; terrific; amazing
to be in a hurry; to be impatient; to be anxious (to do); to get a fright; to panic; to get flustered