to be nearing death; to be dying
as (e.g. "do as one is told", "as we age we gain wisdom"); wherever (e.g. "wherever my fancy took me")
(many) mountains; very much (wanting to do something one cannot); greatly; so many; a lot of
to one's regret; regrettably; unfortunately; what can be done about ...; ... cannot be helped
abandoning (hope, plans); giving up
willpower; guts; determination; character; nature; disposition
serious; not joking; straight
a particular; a certain; that kind of; such a
time; season; period; phase; stage
to lose; to miss; to forget; to be excessive
beginning; start; outset; at first; at the beginning; initially
literary art; literary activity; writing
man (esp. one who is well-respected); samurai; person (in a certain profession, esp. licensed); member
low-ranking soldier; graduation; moving on (from); outgrowing (something); low-ranking samurai (1870-1872); death (of a noble, etc.)
one breath; chug!; drink!
feelings; thoughts; meaning
to remain; to be left over; to be in excess; to be too many
resentment; grudge; malice; matter for regret; regret
to content oneself with; to be resigned to (one's fate); to be contented (satisfied) with (one's lot)
lack of common sense; thoughtlessness; senselessness; irrationality; absurdity
great fortune; good luck; rice cake stuffed with bean jam
mental illness; psychosis
mentally deranged person; lunatic; mental patient
treatment; service; handling; management
surely (not); certainly (not)
bare livelihood; subsistence
to make (the best) use of; to put to good use; to let live; to keep alive; to revive; to resuscitate
without (doing); instead of; if (it) isn't done; if (one) doesn't do ...; if not ...; unless ...
drawing up (e.g. legal document, contract, will, etc.); preparing; writing; framing; making; producing
calling repeatedly (e.g. someone's name); pronouncing successively (usu. repeating a syllable with voicing, as in "tsuzuku")
(some type of) enthusiast; somebody possessed of a (certain kind of) mental abnormality
to have much trouble; to have a hard time; to not know how to handle
one's station in life; one's personal history; one's circumstances; one's lot; one's destiny; one's future
to protect (someone); to look after (e.g. an injured leg); to defend; to cover for; to stand up for; to stick up for
anxiety (about the future)
supposing; even if; granting that; temporarily; provisionally; for the time being